Some big changes happening around these parts. The biggest (other than school starting) is that I got a job! With Little Brother heading off to kindergarten, I now have three kids in school full time! Woohoo!
Now I won't be available to drop everything and run to Grace's school if she needs me. I'm working at a different elementary school than my kids attend, but within the same district. (Our district has a policy against hiring at the school where your children attend.) I'll have the same hours as my kids - I'll get them on the bus in the morning and be home before them in the afternoon. But it's those pesky hours in between that I'm concerned about.
I love, love, LOVE our school nurse and have all the faith in the world in her ability to take care of Grace. But I'm still scared. What if...?
And then there's the benefits question. My family is now covered under my husband's plan at work. He works at a small business and has to cover a large chunk of the premiums himself, and they keep going up every year. Last year they changed health insurance providers to save some money. He's already been told to expect large increases this year.
I'm eligible to get health insurance through my new job. We'd be saving money, but it means we'd have to change insurance for the second time this year. (I know, in the big picture not a problem, it's just a pain with all Grace's paperwork.) My bigger fear is, what if I'm not hired again next year (I'm in a somewhat flexible position that may, or may not, be open next year.) If we commit to this insurance, and my husband drops his plan, what happens if in June I find out my services won't be needed next year? We'd have to wait until open enrollment for my husband to join with his company again. That would be a lapse of about 4 months.
Chances are, I'll have my job for as long as I want it. I'm just feeling a tad, "glass is half empty" about this. I'm nervous about something that probably won't even happen, 10 months from now! And I'm nervous about school starting and me missing Little Brother's first day. And I'm nervous about not being available for Grace.
Way to many, "What if...?"s
How do you working moms do it?
The apache wars by paul hutton
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